These few weeks, all I've been hearing of were exams. My brother's exams are next week, IB trials were just over, and my own A2 trials are coming few weeks later. OMG! All the studying it takes to make sure that I get good grades (well, at least better grades than my last exam...)
Everybody is pressuring me to study like shit. But somehow I think that I have to study harder than shit, since I'm not as smart as everybody else and all. My mum always told me that when other people only have to study once to understand, I'll always have to study 3 times as hard as them in order to understand the same thing! However, this makes me understand that nothing comes easy in life, especially for me. I'm just not one of the gifted ones. And my so-called 'smartness' really comes from many sleepless night and asking useless, nonsense questions that most of my friends already understand.
Speaking of studying, I really have to start upping my efforts in studying if I want to get good grades. These few days I have been slacking off. But for me it's starting to get kind of difficult to maintain the balance I was trying to find between studies and fun. These few years, I have been searching for that balance point between my studies and having fun at the same time. I'm just not willing to sacrifice either of them. Some people tell me that it's impossible to do that, but somewhere along the line, I believe that I have already found my balance point. Well, finding that balance point does work in my favour, as I get to do both, but it's taxing to the body.
Well, this means that for these 3 weeks, no more playing around for me. It's time to get serious and on with it. This is for my future!
XOXO,
Audrey Leow
